Sunday, September 20, 2009
Well I haven't been blogging much lately because I don't have anything inspiring to say. You would think that this would get easier as the days go on, but it's exactly the opposite. Sure, physically things are easier. I'm able to do much more now than I could 6 months ago. If you visited me in the hospital and see me now, you definitely know that physically I have improved greatly. But emotionally it's so much harder. The milestones for Anthony are bittersweet. He turned 6 months yesterday, and that means that I've been sitting in this stupid wheelchair for 6 months. Not exactly how I pictured the first 6 months of motherhood would be. And sometimes I feel like people really don't get it. It's hard enough to be a new mom, and trying being paralyzed in a wheelchair. This is hard. I know I will walk again soon, but I certainly hate waiting. Don't get me wrong, I am so thankful for all of the blessings in my life. But so confused and frustrated by this situation, trying to figure out why this had to happen to me. I am really looking forward to the day when we can all celebrate because I'm walking again! And until then I will try my best to stay positive, but each day I feel I'm growing more weary on this journey.